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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Feb. 23, 2010

So the weekend is over and so is my birthday. The beginning of a new year and a new me.
I am 52 years old now and I like the ring of that number. I am not a fan of odd numbers. 52 is round robust and proud and that is my goal. Healthy, happy and contributing to this world. I have great friends, a wonderful lover and a family that loves me. I do have a few things to work on but they don't seem so unattainable anymore. So forward I go.

2 cups of coffee with cream and sugar

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Food Diary

February 18, 2010

Breakfast and lunch
2 cups of coffee with cream and sugar ( before going to the GYM)
scrambled eggs, English muffin
Orange juice

Apple
Mandarine


pasta with home made sauce

Sunflower seeds
Yogurt with granola
crackers and (4) cream cheese

February 19, 2010

2 cups of coffee with cream and sugar

Chicken bacon, mushrooms and 2 eggs, plus toast. Orange Juice (hungry today probably because no junk food last night, which was sooooo hard!)

A cinimmon apple bar

Pasta and sauce

falafhal

I got home after 12:30am and was hungry so a salad and canned salmon.

Food Biography


My 52ND birthday is 4 days away and I feel change in the air..yet again. I quit smoking 2 years ago after smoking for 36 years so I figure I can tackle anything..right?
Food...Fucking food! So I can't quit it, forget about it or sweep it under the closet. ( No pun intended)So how do I approach the problem as a whole.

Never had issues till I became a sedentary Manager over 12 years ago. Until then I was fit, active and could pretty well eat what I want.As time went by,life and work stresses became more, exercise less and my junk food consumption went through the roof. I am now a whopping 224lbs. Now in the big scheme of things,I have seen larger but I'm big enough.The one thing keeping me sane and healthy is my habits of 30 years of working out and I have continued through all this weight gain so I don't look awful but admittedly I am fat. check out the picture attached.
What I have noticed with the added weight and with aging as well, is my knee joints and my feet hurt like hell all the time.I have always had feet problems and my knee joints are already damaged by past jobs and sports. As I said, I led a fairly active life. Let's just add over 50lbs to the problem and it's terribly painful. Not good.

My disposition and happiness levels are also in a negative space. I have tried to rationalize my unhappiness due to menopause ( I think that's a good one) Loneliness and plan old not getting what I want from this life. Now yes..some of this is true but if I was physically healthier, I think it would go a long way to overall mental health euphoria!
So starting today, I have created a list of rules to help me make the changes I need. I will not be dieting but I will create a daily food diary to help me see what I am doing.
so here we go:
1. Stop being hard on myself. That's a killer!
2.No junk food from Monday to Friday. Weekends are free. The only munchies I am allowing myself is sunflower seeds. Yes...I know they are covered with salt but then I could continue eating chocolate bars, cookies, chips, all types of nuts etc...I think you get the picture.
3.An Hour after my evening meal, go for a walk. This will break up my wanting to eat junk food in from of the Tube.
4. Wait 15 minutes after I eat to see if I'm still hungry. I have a terrible habit of eating junk or more food after I eat, this one I saw on Dr. OZ., my hero! :)
5. Meditation. Strangely this calms that restless soul in me.

This is the first step of my new journey. 2 weeks to detox from junk food, then changing the way I eat or should I say, tweaking the way I eat. I just realized something, I always create change around my birthday. Interesting! lol